I hate it as much as I feel. It always puts me on the losing end. And I hate that. I thought I mastered feeling nothing and to just let things be (for better or worse) but here's the catch - when you let things be, feelings will get involved if it takes off to… Continue reading I Hate To Feel At All
Alcohol is a booster. Nights are terrifying. It is when you could say anything, would say everything and might even do... things. Even if it doesn't make sense, or even if it made complete sense. It makes you wonder when you're sober. It makes you think when you get sober. It keeps you up at… Continue reading Something Out Of Everything
We have the same goals, same dreams. We had. I wanted a marriage, you wanted a promise. I wanted a home, you wanted a family. I wanted you and you wanted me. We had it all. Then it became me needing assurance, you seeing it as disturbance. You needing time, me seeing it as avoidance.… Continue reading We Had
Hi. Some of you might know me as the one who is always sad or angry, or both. So if you don't already know, I have a YouTube channel and I have been taking breaks very so often. I feel like I need to explain myself whenever I do, so much that it all feels… Continue reading What I’ve Been Up To
It is taking a toll on my mental health. It takes control. It overwrites what my heart say is fine. It, feels so familiar yet so distant. I don't know what is it but it knows me. And I realize that only when I claim to be not happy not sad, but okay. "Just okay."… Continue reading It.